Sunday, August 01, 2010

sacrifice a lil bit of freedom and be with someone yoo love dearly, OR
sacrifice the one yoo love dearly just for freedom and make BOTH suffer now?
yoo chose the 2nd one.
i sacrifices so much, so much for yoo.
and yoo know what? i din mind cause i love yoo.
but now, all the sacrifices are not worth anymore.
and now we are as good as going back to square one.
remember yoo once had a choice.

i said 'its okay, few months later ... ... ... '
yoo said ' so this is how much faith yoo have in our love ? '
yeah, i had alot of faith in our love, in the end , this is what happen.
yoo are the one who dont have enough faith in us.

yoo only know what yoo want, have yoo ever think of what i want?
i never gave up, yoo are the one who give up too easily.
yoo selfishly said yoo still wanna continue loving me but dont want any commitment.
yoo wanna go back to how we used to be. but no, i dont want it anymore.
yoo cant have things both ways. this is too selfish.
i thought last time yoo were the one who dont want Me to be tied down BY yoo?
wake up jessie goh. stop thinking he's different.
your mum's right. all guys are the same.
i gotta stop having false hope, stop hoping that one day yoo will come back again.
cause we are so over.
its hard to wait around for something that might never happen,
but its harder to give it all up when yoo know its everything yoo want.
i spent far too much time waiting for yoo.
and now i just gotta stop thinking about what i want, but what i deserve.
i want a guy that want, and will fight for me.
and not give up and push me to another guy when someone he THINKS is better came along. DETERMINATION.


guess what,
one day the thought of yoo wont make me smile silly to myself anymore.
one day receiving your text wont get me all jumpy and excited anymore.
one day reminiscing about us wont make my tears flow anymore.
one day i dont even wanna look at our photos anymore.
one day when yoo regret and realized that no one can ever love yoo the way like i do, no one can ever treat yoo like i do, no one can ever be as forgiving as i do, no one can take your temper and nags like i do, no one would understand yoo the way like i do,
WILL be the day that i've moved on, completely forgetting about YOO, forgetting about, US.

hurts alot? hell yeah.

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